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singin' their heads off
protected by the holy ghost
flyin' in from the ocean
drivin' with their eyes closed
[patty griffin]
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i just wanted you to know that i miss you.
sometimes you might think that i've forgotten, but i haven't. i miss riding in your old car and listening to the foo fighters. i miss our crazy hair and excessive eye makeup and how we never really felt guilty about eating taco bell or skipping classes.
i miss our feet out the window. i miss working on our tans and microwaving things that aren't good for us. i miss waking up in the morning and leaving to go get a burrito. no damn makeup. we looked good without it anyway. i miss even earlier than that, before we could drive, when we could only walk, when we didn't really have the whole eyebrow-tweezing thing nailed yet, when we never worried about paying each other back.
i'm sorry about the fighting, the bleeding. sometimes i felt like we were negatives of each other, like we sometimes needed that to forge parts of our own identities. we should have been more careful. that's one of the things i miss too, though. the way we didn't care.
i haven't really managed to nail that kind of uncomplicated with anyone else. it might have been the circumstances, but i think it was you. i think that you are good at being real around people, for better and for worse. i just wanted you to know that i remember.
let's do that again sometime. i know that we both tweeze our eyebrows and own too many pairs of shoes now. i know that we've both been gone for a long time, that when we're together we're silent from the weight of things that have happened, that we haven't shared. but let's go skinny-dipping somewhere. cellulite be damned. i haven't waxed my bikini line either. let's get tattoos and swear to never tell our moms. let's go somewhere fun for days and get in a fight and come back with lots of really great pictures.
anyway, that's all. i just think that the world is a scary place, with lots of things like insurance policies and manila envelopes, and we should stick together. come back. burritos on me. i'm pretty sure i still owe you money.
